Friday 27 February 2009

PINOY BIG BROTHER SEASON 3 - PALPAK na audition ever!

BAD EVENING!!! >:(

ANG SAMA NG ARAW KO KANINA!!! BAD TRIP!!!

Sa pamagat ko naman siguro, malinaw na malinaw ang ibig kong sabihin.

Kung bakit pa kasi pinagsama yung audition ng PBB Season 3 at ng PBB Teen Edition 3. Kaya tuloy hindi na nga maayos, nagkakagulo na yung mga tao. Una, very disorganised yung paraan ng pagpasok sa mga nag-audition. Pangalawa, nagsisiksikan at nagtutulakan yung mga tao kapag umaabante na yung linya. Bilad na nga kami kanina sa ilalim ng mainit na araw tapos ganoon pa yung sistema ng pagpapa-audition! How unfair naman hindi ba?

Nananakit pa pati yung mga event marshalls kapag pinaayos yung mga tao sa linya. Ano ba naman yan?! At may eksena pang pina-deploy na pulis at yun pang fire truck! Ano yun, WELGA?!?

Ayos na sana kahit na hindi man ako matanggap sa audition na yun, basta pinapasok lang sana kami ng maayos! Walang kasiste-sistema! I'm still pissed off, you know!

Hindi sa nagagalit ako mismo sa Pinoy Big Brother. In fact, isa rin siya sa mga TV shows na favourite ko. Pero sa sistema lang talaga magulo.

Kaya sana, kung mababasa man ito ng mga taga ABS-CBN, magsilbi sana itong guide para mapaayos nila yung susunod na audition. At sana nga ay makapasok ako pati na yung iba nang maayos by the time na sasali uli ako sa audition.

But still... I'M PISSED OFF!

Wednesday 25 February 2009

Convergent Radiance

Good evening and ciao!

Many things have had happened by the time I established my amity with some students of City Of Malabon University. It all started when I made company with my best of friend, Kyo, during their cheerdance rehearsals some weeks ago. And along with those, there are some things that just came without any sort of expectation.

It's true, I gained some good friends from the school I mentioned above. And it's a pleasure having them as my treasures in life. But this is not what I would like to say.

Again, another sort of thing came into me. But then, I don't want to do another sort of catastrophe that might ruin me all over again.

Therefore, I would like to ask for heaven's assistance. And so will it be.

Thursday 19 February 2009

Enlightened Emotions

Good afternoon!

Guess it's about to rain outside. At bubuhos na rin miya-miya ang malakas ng ulan. Sana ay kasabay din ng agos ang pagkawala ng mga problema at hinanakit ko.

Kung makikita niyo, halos puro tungkol sa saloobin ko ang mga sinusulat ko rito. Hindi ko rin kasi alam kung kanino ko dapat ibaling ang mga saloobin ko. Kung sa bagay, katulad ko rin ang mga ibang tao na may kanya-kanya ring dinadalang problema at hinanakit. At least, nakakatulong ang mga dasal upang gumaan man lang ang loob ko.

Many people say that I'm friendly and jolly. Ngunit mangilan-ngilan lang ang nakakaalam at nakakaramdam kung ano talaga ang saloobin ko. Ayaw ko rin kasing magmukha akong tanga sa harapan ng maraming tao kung magpapakita ako ng pagiging emosyonal ko. But guess what? I'm almost certain of what I really am. I guess, medyo gets na ng iba sa inyo kung ano ang ibig kong sabihin.

At ayan, umaambon na. I can feel the rich moist air (pero huwag sana akong dapuan ng sakit). Ramdam ko namang medyo nawawala na yung mga bigat sa kalooban ko. Thanks sa mga nagkokonswelo sa akin kahit na hindi nila ipinapahalata sa akin.

Gaya ng sinabi sa akin ng dati kong leader noong nag-text sa akin: "Hope that you'll find happiness with the people who love you."

Maraming salamat sa kanya. I'm sorry kung poot at galit pa rin ang pinairal ko sa iyo. But you know what? Marami rin akong natutunan sa iyo, gaya na lang ng pagiging matatag ang kalooban. Kung alam mo lang, sobra akong naiinggit sa iyo. Pero sana, mapatawad mo ako by the time na mababasa mo ito. You know naman na tinuring kitang kaibigan, at alam mo ring napapangiti mo rin ako sa mga kwento mo. Kaya sana rin, marami kang mapasayang tao.

At sa lahat ng mga taong mahalaga sa akin, MAHAL NA MAHAL KO KAYO.
At sa lahat ng mga kaaway ko, hindi pa rin tuluyang nagsasara ang pintuan ko para sa inyo, at sana nga ay MAGPATAWARAN na tayo.

Salamat sa lahat for this now!

Wednesday 18 February 2009

Freestyle - Before I Let You Go

I can still remember yesterday
We were so in love in a special way
And knowing that you love me
Made me feel, oh, so right

But now I feel lost,
Don't know what to do
Each and everyday I think of you
Holdin' back the tears
I'm trying with all my might

Because you've gone and left me
Standin' all alone
And I know i've got to face
Tomorrow on my own
But baby

Before I let you go
I want to say I love you
I hope that you're listenin'
'coz it's true, baby, oh yeah
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do
So before I let you go
I want to say "I love you"

I wish that it could be
Just like before
I know I could've given you
So much more
Even though you know
I've given you all my love
I miss your smile, I miss your kiss
Each and everyday I reminisce
'coz baby it's you
That i'm always dreamin' of

Because you've gone and left me
Standin' all alone
And I know i've got to face
Tomorrow on my own
But baby

Before I let you go
I want to say I love you
I hope that you're listenin'
'coz it's true, baby, oh yeah
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do
So before I let you go
I want to say "I love you"

Letting love go is never easy
But I love you so
That's why I set you free
I know someday, somehow
I'll find a way
To leave it all behind me
Guess it wasn't meant to be
But baby

Before I let you go
I want to say I love you
I hope that you're listenin'
'coz it's true, baby, oh yeah
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do
So before I let you go
I want to say...

So before I let you go
I want to say "I love you"



Saturday 14 February 2009

The Letter "E"

Good afternoon and happy Valentine's day!

Though I'm still LOVELESS, there are still some people who appreciate, admire, and love me. And that's guaranteed for sure! That is why I am inspired and hopeful each and every day. After all, everything is constantly changing.

Speaking of letter "E"...

I don't know what should I say...

I'm almost fed up with such things that will only ruin me...

For my idols, BoA and Se7en, I wish them luck towards their international success! I love them so much!

"Ingatan po natin ang ating mga magulang na babae... ang mga ina..."

Friday 13 February 2009

CITY OF MALABON UNIVERSITY Foundation Week 2009

Good afternoon!

Today is the Foundation Week of City Of Malabon University.

Geez, it's really hot outside. But guess what? I was having a sort of friendly bonding with my new friends from that school. And they were actually the participants of CMU Cheering yesterday from Education Department. Though they were only 3rd in the ranking, I am also happy for them. For so many nights that I was with them during their rehearsals. But then, it was sad for me that I haven't seen them actually performing their cheering performance.

And last night was really fun! We had a prestigious drinking session held at Kyo's pad. And I was terribly drunk! But at least had a chance to share some of my queer guts with them. And it's also one of my unforgettable moments in my life.

Nevertheless, there are hopes that I'll get to see a video of theirs.

Well...

Today is also the Foundation Week of my school, Our Lady Of Fatima University at the Rizal Grand Stadium. But I did not attend there! Hehehehe!

How silly of me!

Thursday 12 February 2009

Britney Spears - Womanizer


Superstar
Where you from, how's it going?
I know you
Gotta clue, what youre doing?
You can play brand new to all the other chicks out here
But I know what you are, what you are, baby

Look at you
Gettin' more than just re-up
Baby, you
Got all the puppets with their strings up
Fakin' like a good one, but I call 'em like I see 'em
I know what you are, what you are, baby


Womanizer
Woman-Womanizer
You're a womanizer
Oh Womanizer
Oh You're a Womanizer Baby
You, You You Are
You, You You Are
Womanizer, Womanizer, Womanizer

Boy don't try to front I (I) know just (just) what you are (are are)
Boy don't try to front I (I) know just (just) what you are (are are)

You Got Me Goin'
You're Oh-So Charmin'
But I can't do it
U Womanizer

Boy don't try to front I (I) know just (just) what you are (are are)
Boy don't try to front I (I) know just (just) what you are (are are)

You Say I'm Crazy
I got Your Crazy
You're nothing but
A Womanizer

Daddy-O
You got the swagger of champion
Too bad for you
Just can't find the right companion
I guess when you have one too many, makes it hard
It could be easy
Who you are, that's who you are, baby

Lollipop
Must mistake me you're a sucker
To think that I
Would be a victim not another
Say it, play it how you wanna
But no way I'm ever gonna fall for you, never you, baby

Womanizer
Woman-Womanizer
You're a womanizer
Oh Womanizer
Oh You're a Womanizer Baby
You, You You Are
You, You You Are
Womanizer, Womanizer, Womanizer

Boy don't try to front I (I) know just (just) what you are (are are)
Boy don't try to front I (I) know just (just) what you are (are are)

You Got Me Goin'
You're Oh-So Charmin'
But I can't do it
U Womanizer

Boy don't try to front I (I) know just (just) what you are (are are)
Boy don't try to front I (I) know just (just) what you are (are are)

You Say I'm Crazy
I got Your Crazy
You're nothing but
A Womanizer

Maybe if we both lived in different worlds
(Womanizer Womanizer Womanizer Womanizer)
It would be all good, and maybe I could be ya girl
But I can't 'cause we don't
You...

Womanizer
Woman-Womanizer
You're a womanizer
Oh Womanizer
Oh You're a Womanizer Baby
You, You You Are
You, You You Are
Womanizer, Womanizer, Womanizer

Boy don't try to front I (I) know just (just) what you are (are are)
Boy don't try to front I (I) know just (just) what you are (are are)

You Got Me Goin'
You're Oh-So Charmin'
But I can't do it
U Womanizer

Boy don't try to front I (I) know just (just) what you are (are are)
Boy don't try to front I (I) know just (just) what you are (are are)

You Say I'm Crazy
I got Your Crazy
You're nothing but
A Womanizer

Boy don't try to front I (I) know just (just) what you are (are are)
Boy don't try to front I (I) know just (just) what you are (are are)

Womanizer
Woman-Womanizer
You're a womanizer
Oh Womanizer
Oh You're a Womanizer Baby





Womanizer (Original Version) - Britney Spears

Wednesday 11 February 2009

Evanescence - Bring Me To Life



How can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I’ve become

Now that I know what I’m without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I’ve become

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

Frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought without a voice without a soul
Don't let me die here
There must be something more
Bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I’ve become

(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)




EVANESCENCE
BRING ME TO LIFE
FALLEN
WIND-UP RECORDS, 2003

Monday 2 February 2009

Roxie Barcelo - Kung Alam Mo Lang


"hindi mo na kailangan pa ito'y sabihin pa,
na mayroong nagbago sa loob ng puso mo,
wala akong magagawa kundi palayain ka,
kaya pinilit kong huwag aminin sa iyo...

kung alam mo lang kaya ang tunay na nadarama,
nanaisin mo pa bang lumayo sa piling ko,
at kung alam mo lang sana,
kailan ma'y 'di mawawala,
ang pag-ibig ko sa iyo, laging nasa puso ko...

akala ko ay kaya na ngayong wala ka na,
ngunit hindi pala, limutin ka'y 'di magawa,
palagi kong tinatanong sa sarili ko ito,
ikaw ba'y lalayo kung lahat ay inamin ko..."

kung alam mo lang kaya ang tunay na nadarama,
nanaisin mo pa bang lumayo sa piling ko,
at kung alam mo lang sana,
kailan ma'y 'di mawawala,
ang pag-ibig ko sa iyo, laging nasa puso ko...

pipilitin kong itago ang lahat nito,
ngunit patuloy kong tanong,
kailan kaya magwawakas,
oh ito...

kung alam mo lang kaya ang tunay na nadarama,
nanaisin mo pa bang lumayo sa piling ko,
at kung alam mo lang sana,
kailan ma'y 'di mawawala,
ang pag-ibig ko sa iyo, laging nasa puso ko...

kung alam mo lang kaya ang tunay na nadarama,
nanaisin mo pa bang lumayo sa piling ko...


Kung Alam Mo Lang - Roxie Barcelo