Wednesday, 31 December 2008

Goodbye 2008... Hello 2009

It's time to say gooodbye to the old year, 2008, and say hello to the new year, 2009!

It's been to short since the entry of the year 2008. And now, the world is about to welcome the year 2009.

What would be the future beyond the times of this year then?

Will the world be at peace then?

Or will the world become worse than ever?

I don't know, really.

Bu then, I would like to thank the year 2008 for the moments I've had. It was such a wonderful year, which is full of twists and turns. Such unforgettable memories to keep within myself.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

Saturday, 27 December 2008

Britney Spears - Toxic




Baby, can’t you see
I’m calling
A guy like you
Should wear a warning
It’s dangerous
I’m fallin’

There’s no escape
I can’t wait
I need a hit
Baby, give me it
You’re dangerous
I’m lovin’ it

Too high
Can’t come down
Losing my head
Spinning ‘round and ‘round
Do you feel me now

With a taste of your lips
I’m on a ride
You're toxic I'm slipping under
With a taste of a poison paradise
I’m addicted to you
Don’t you know that you’re toxic
And I love what you do
Don’t you know that you’re toxic

It’s getting late
To give you up
I took a sip
From my devil's cup
Slowly
It’s taking over me

Too high
Can’t come down
It’s in the air
And it’s all around
Can you feel me now

With a taste of your lips
I’m on a ride
You're toxic I'm slipping under
With a taste of a poison paradise
I’m addicted to you
Don’t you know that you’re toxic
And I love what you do
Don’t you know that you’re toxic

Don't you know that you're toxic

With a taste of your lips
I'm on a ride
You're toxic I'm slipping under
With a taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic

Intoxicate me now
With your lovin' now
I think I'm ready now
I think I'm ready now
Intoxicate me now
With your lovin' now
I think I'm ready now



Thursday, 25 December 2008

Merrick Christmas to me!

Today is Christmas Day for the year 2008.

Ilang araw na lang at New Year na naman tayo.

At kahit paano ay marami akong nakuhang biyaya from heaven.

At ang mas masaya pa ay nung nagkasundo-sundo na yung mga magkakamag-anak sa amin.

I miss my sister and my brother! Kumusta naman kaya yung bunso namin?

Buti naman at gustong magbakasyon ni bro ko dito sa Malabon. At magkakaroon na naman kami ng good bonding moments with me and with my other good friends!

Pasensiya na nga pala sa Living Hope Chorale kung hindi ako nakapag-serve! I love you always!

MALIGAYANG PASKO!

Wednesday, 24 December 2008

Britney Spears - Sometimes



You tell me you're in love with me
Like you can't take your pretty eyes away from me
It's not that I don't want to stay
But every time you come too close I move away

I wanna believe in everything that you say
'Cause it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move slow
There's things about me you just have to know

Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right
Be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time

I don't wanna be so shy
Every time that I'm alone I wonder why
Hope that you will wait for me
You'll see that you're the only one for me

I wanna believe in everything that you say
'Cause it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move slow
There's things about me you just have to know

Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you righ
Be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time

Just hang around and you'll see
There's nowhere I'd rather be
If you love me, trust in me
The way that I trust in you

Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right
Be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time



Monday, 22 December 2008

SBP-PYC 13th Paskong Paslit and SEMP-LHC Caroling

Good evening!

Kakatapos ko lang sa caroling namin. Ngayon ko lang kasi naisaulo yung mga awit namin sa caroling. After all, 6 months pa lang ako sa aking paninilbihan sa pangkat ng Living Hope Chorale sa San Exequiel Moreno Parish.

Kanina nga pala ay ang 13th Paskong Paslit ng San Bartolome Parish, through the accomplishments of Parish Youth Council (na dating kilala bilang Parish Youth Ministry). Medyo hindi na rin ako gaanong active doon sa kadahilanang mas naging concentrated ako sa San Exequiel Parish. But it doesn't mean na tuluyan ko na ring bibitawan ang mga tungkulin ko doon as a Parish Youth Minister and Word Minister.

Sa Paskong Paslit kanina ay naging successful naman ang programme. Somehow, napasaya namin ang mga kabataang naroon. At naramdam nga nila ang diwa ng Pasko sa amin. At pagkatapos ng mahabang oras ng pagpapasaya sa mga bata ay nagsikainan din kami. Sayang dahil naubusan na ng mga kubyertos pati ng perro caliente para sa akin. And I had no choice kung hindi kamayin yung kanin na may masarap na inasal na manok. NAMIT GID!

Hindi pa rin natatapos ang kwento ko rito.

Nag-caroling pa kaming Living Hope Chorale sa mga kabahayan. Nitong Biyernes ng gabi ko lang sila nakasama dahil may preliminary exams kami sa eskwela nitong mga nakaraan. Grabe talaga dahil paos na ang tinig ko! Gawin ko ba daw contralto to the highest level ang boses ko eh! And in fairness, nakakaamoy ang grupo namin ng UMUUSBONG NA PAG-IBIG! Ganoon din sa Parish Youth Council. But of course, hindi ko na rin babanggitin kung sino sila ano! Anyway, all I know is that I am happy in committing myself in 2 churches in Malabon City - San Bartolome Parish and San Exequiel Moreno Parish.

Speaking of Holy Family Parish, talagang naka-plano na ang talagang pagbabalik ko doon. In the first place, iyon talaga ang simbahang una kong nilugod nang buong puso at isip. Ngunit nabitawan ko nga simula nang tumira na ako uli dito sa Malabon Lakanbalen. But as the saying goes: KUNG MAY NAIS AY MAY PARAAN, AT KUNG AYAW AY MAY DAHILAN.

Who knows? Tatlong simbahan na rin ang paglilingkuran ko! Bonggang bongga!

Wednesday, 17 December 2008

Laklakan before Christmas

Good evening!

I’m just having a drinking session with my former groupmates in NCM 105 RLE. And I’m somewhat tipsy as of now. Man, I don’t know if I could go home safely afterwards.
But guess what? I’m still happy regardless of the everyday stress and challenges. Somehow, there are still some people who still make me strong to face the everyday burden and hardships. Of course, I would like to thank God for the strength and endurance.

As Christmas approaches so fast, all I have to do is to be humble and good. And I have to forgive people who sinned against me. After all, they still became part of my life. Quite lucky I am because there are still a lot of people who accept and appreciate me as what I am.

The cool winter breeze is caressing my face, and I can feel that the year 2008 is about to come to its end few days from now. Another new year and another sort of challenges and trials that I should face and overcome, and I should prepare myself for those matters.

How I wish, I’ll be better as soon as the New Year comes. I guess there are some things that I should fix on my own. Hence, I should plan as soon as I go home.
May God bless me and my family for eternity, AMEN.

Wednesday, 10 December 2008

New Christmas Tree in our House

こんにちは。 안녕하세요.

CHRISTMAS IS IN THE AIR!

Ang tagal din naming walang Christmas Tree sa bahay namin!

Huli kaming naglagay ng Christmas Tree noong Kinder 2 pa lang ako. Pero tinapon ni inang mudra yun dahil sa sobrang kalumaan at marami nang sira at putol-putol na sanga.

However... nakaharang naman sa TV yung puno! Hehehehe!

But guess what? Hindi na nga dama ang lamig ng Pasko dahil sa Global Warming, kung hindi pati na rin sa nangyayari ngayon sa mundo! What's going on with the world citizens then?!

Marami pa pala akong pinagtataguan ng sama ng loob. Ang masama pa pati sa akin ay sobra pang tumaas ang pride ko at puro kapaitan na lang ang nasa puso at isip ko. Dalawang Simbahang Katoliko pa naman ang mga pinagsisilbihan ko pero ganito lang pala kapait ang saloobin ko.

Kung may kaluluwa lang yung bago naming Christmas Tree namin, ano na lang ang ipababatid nun sa akin?

Tuesday, 9 December 2008

Toni Gonzaga - Kasalanan Ko Ba


Ibang-iba ang nadarama
Ng puso ko sa iyo
'Di ko na kaya ang
Umiwas pa sa piling mo

Alam ko mayroon nang nagmamahal sa iyo
Bakit ngayon ka pa
Natagpuan sa buhay kong ito

Kasalanan ko ba
Kung iniibig kita?
'Di ko naman sinasadya ang mahalin kita
Kasalanan ko ba kung ang nadarama
Ay pag-ibig na tapat?
Mapipigil ko ba kung mahal kitang talaga

Nagtitiis at nangangamba
Sa tuwing kasama mo siya
Hanggang kailan ko ba madadala
Ang pagdaramdam

Kasalanan ko ba
Kung iniibig kita?
'Di ko naman sinasadya ang mahalin kita
Kasalanan ko ba kung ang nadarama
Ay pag-ibig na tapat?
Mapipigil ko ba kung mahal kitang talaga

Umaasa pa
Magising akong kapiling ka
At 'di na mawawalay pa

Kasalanan ko ba
Kung iniibig kita?
'Di ko naman sinasadya ang mahalin kita
Kasalanan ko ba kung ang nadarama
Ay pag-ibig na tapat?
Mapipigil ko ba kung mahal kitang talaga


Monday, 1 December 2008

Rihanna - Don't Stop The Music



Please don't stop the music (4x)

It's gettin' late
I'm making my way over to my favorite place
I gotta get my body moving shake the stress away
I wasn't looking for nobody when you looked my way
Possible candidate (yeah)
Who knew
That you'd be up in here lookin like you do
You're makin' stayin' over here impossible
Baby I must say your aura is incredible
If you dont have to go don't

Do you know what you started
I just came here to party
But now we're rockin on the dancefloor
Acting naughty
Your hands around my waist
Just let the music play
We're hand in hand
Chest to chest
And now we're face to face

I wanna take you away
Lets escape into the music
DJ let it play
I just can't refuse it
Like the way you do this
Keep on rockin to it
Please don't stop the
Please don't stop the music


I wanna take you away
Lets escape into the music
DJ let it play
I just can't refuse it
Like the way you do this
Keep on rocking to it
Please don't stop the
Please don't stop the
Please don't stop the music


Baby are you ready cause its getting close
Don't you feel the passion ready to explode
What goes on between us no one has to know
This is a private show (oh)

Do you know what you started
I just came here to party
But now we're rockin on the dancefloor

Acting naughty
Your hands around my waist
Just let the music play
We're hand in hand

Chest to chest
And now we're face to face

I wanna take you away
Lets escape into the music
DJ let it play
I just can't refuse it
Like the way you do this
Keep on rockin to it
Please don't stop the
Please don't stop the music

I wanna take you away
Lets escape into the music
DJ let it play
I just can't refuse it
Like the way you do this
Keep on rockin to it
Please don't stop the
Please don't stop the
Please don't stop the music


Ma say ma sa, Ma ma coo sa
Ma say ma sa, Ma ma coosa (2x)

Please don't stop the music

Ma say ma sa, Ma ma coo sa
Ma say ma sa, Ma ma coosa

Please don't stop the music (2x)

I wanna take you away
Lets escape into the music
DJ let it play
I just can't refuse it
Like the way you do this
Keep on rockin to it
Please don't stop the
Please don't stop the music

I wanna take you away
Lets escape into the music
DJ let it play
I just can't refuse it
Like the way you do it

Keep on rocking to it
Please don't stop the
Please don't stop the
Please don't stop the music

Ma ma say ma ma sa, Ma ma coo sa
Ma ma say ma ma sa, Ma ma coosa(6x)

Please don't stop the music


Saturday, 29 November 2008

Batangas Galore

Good evening!

Just got home.

Ang dami ring nangyari sa aming provincial duty sa Batangas.

Batangas Regional Hospital. At least, may nakuha akong case dun!

Yun na rin ang last duty namin para sa NCM 105. At maraming maraming salamat sa mga kagrupo ko. Astig kayong lahat!



PMR - Our dear group leader! Kahit na may nalaman ka sa akin, hindi ka pa rin naging malamig sa akin! In fairness ha, nadala mo rin nang maayos ang grupo natin. Pasensiya na rin sa pagiging pasaway ko. But there's something in me that you still fon't know. Baka magulat ka na lang kapag nasabi ko na sa iyo...

AAM - Sossy girl! Talagang party-go-fun ka 'day! Dakal a salamat keka, ampong pasawe ku keka tamu! If you have more favours to ask, just text me and I'll attend to you... OK? Ü

MnMo - Thanks sa pagpapahiram mo sa akin ng tumbler mo! I'll never forget a jolly person like you! Pasensiya nga pala nung nag-ingay ako while you're still asleep. I love you friend! Thanks a lot!

JN - Girl, grabe ang pag-open up mo habang natutulog ako! Lalo na nung sinabi ni ano na "GALIT KA NGA... MAY FEELINGS PA RIN YUN!" Naka-relate talaga ako nun! Ikaw pa pati yung nakasama ko kaninang pag-uwi natin. Ang saya din ng showdown natin kagabi!

PADT - Kumusta ang mahaba mong pagtulog? Hehehe! Ingat na lang!

JKS - Ano neh? Ingats!

MeMo - Grabe ka pala malasing! Halos pinagkalat mo yung mga lihim ng mga kasama natin! And in fairness, tinalbugan mo ang English-speaking skills ko at kabisado mo yung mga patho-physiology ng mga sakit! Dapat ka palang uminom ng hard liquor bago kayo mag-board exams! Pero kahit na ganun, napasaya mo rin ang grupo natin!

JD - Promise... hindi ako yung gumamit ng unan mo! Peace tayo!

KC - Buwiset ka! Tama bang paluin mo yung genitals ko habang kinukunan ko kayo ng pictures! Hehehe! Pero ang sarap mo ring ka-bonding huh! Ü

CT - Thanks nang lubos sa paglibre sa akin ng pamasahe natin pauwi. And thanks for being so kind to me. It's so nice to know a person like you!

MA - Thanks din sa pagiging mabait sa akin!


SPECIAL SHOOTOUT:

AAC - Akalain mong magiging mas ka-close mo ang grupo namin! Dakal a salamat king pamiyabe a mebuo keka tamu! Bala ku sadya, suplado ka pero maganaka nakaman!


Ang saya ng experience!

And take note!

Ang ganda rin ng mga movies na napanood ko habang pauwi na kami.


FOR THE FIRST TIME (starring KC CONCEPCION and RICHARD GUTTIEREZ)


A VERY SPECIAL LOVE (starring SARAH GERONIMO and JOHN LLOYD CRUZ)



I'm gonna miss our moments in Batangas City!

Tuesday, 25 November 2008

Nezadovoljen

Good evening.

I am not feeling good.

I pretend to be happy in front of many people.

But what they don't know is that my privacy was terribly disturbed.

Why?

It's simple.

Some people tried to find out some facts about my private life.

And the worst is that they made fun of it.

I pretended that it was only nothing.

But it almost killed me inside.

Anyway.

It has happened.

And I have nothing to do to reverse it.

It was very evident and clear like a shining diamond, though my private life is not that sensitive.

Supposed that it was concealed for long time.

But it is now clear in front of many people.

Guess what?

It's very FRUSTRATING.

Saturday, 22 November 2008

Winter Breeze

Good evening! And hello to the fellow readers of this blog of mine. Thanks for dropping by.


Tomorrow will be my departure for Batangas Provincial Hospital. And I don't know what will be the event by the time I will be there.


Ahm, nice to feel the scent of winter breeze. Hence, Christmas 2008 is fast approaching. And life's challenges on me is getting surprising yet strengthening. But guess what? Experience is really the best teacher.


PLEASE DON'T STOP THE MUSIC! WOOHOO!


I firmly believe that there are certain reasons why do some things happen, regardless that it has good or bad effect on me.


Thanks to those who still believe in me, regardless of who and what I am. You guys know who you are!


And those who feel something bad about me, I feel sorry for you. Why not try to LOOK AND REFLECT FIRST ON YOUR OWN WRONGDOINGS AND FOOLISHNESS? Anyway, I don't the power to control your minds and emotions. So be it then.

Saturday, 15 November 2008

Friday, 14 November 2008

Thursday, 13 November 2008

Wednesday, 12 November 2008

Beyoncé Knowles and Shakira - Beautiful Liar



Ay, Ay, Ay
Nobody likes being played
Beyonce, Beyonce
Shakira, Shakira (hey)

[Beyonce] He said I'm worth it, his one desire
[Shakira] I know things about 'em that you wouldn't wanna read about
[Beyonce] He kissed me, his one and only, (yes) beautiful Liar
[Shakira] Tell me how you tolerate the things that you just found out about

[Shakira] You never know
[Beyonce] Why are we the ones who suffer
[Shakira] I have to let go
[Beyonce] He won't be the one to cry

[Beyonce] (Ay) Let's not kill the karma
(Ay) Let's not start a fight
(Ay) It's not worth the drama
For a beautiful liar
[Shakira] (Oh) Did he laugh about it
(Oh) It's not worth our time
(Oh) We can live without 'em
Just a beautiful liar

[Shakira] I trusted him, but when I followed you, I saw you together
[Beyonce] I didn't know about you then 'till I saw you with him again
[Shakira] I walked in on your love scene, slow dancing
[Beyonce] You stole everything, how can you say I did you wrong

[Shakira] You never know
[Beyonce] When the pain and heartbreak's over
[Shakira] I have to let go
[Beyonce] The innocence is gone

[Beyonce] (Ay) Let's not kill the karma
(Ay) Let's not start a fight
(Ay) It's not worth the drama
For a beautiful liar
[Shakira] (Oh) Did he laugh about it
(Oh) It's not worth our time
(Oh) We can live without 'em
Just a beautiful liar

[Shakira] Tell me how to forgive you
When it's me who's ashamed
[Beyonce] And I wish could free you
Of the hurt and the pain
(Both) But the answer is simple
He's the one to blame

[Beyonce] (Ay) Let's not kill the karma
(Ay) Let's not start a fight
(Ay) It's not worth the drama
For a beautiful liar
[Shakira] (Oh) Did he laugh about it
(Oh) It's not worth our time
(Oh) We can live without 'em
Just a beautiful liar

Tuesday, 11 November 2008

Joross Gamboa



REAL NAME: John Ross Sanchez Gamboa
BIRTHDATE: November 28, 1984
BIRTHPLACE: Daet, Camarines Norte
LANGUAGES: Tagalog, Bicol Central, English


Ah, si Joross ba? Hindi ko nga alam kung paano kami nagkakilala nito eh! Hehehe, joke lang Kuya!

Ewan ko ba kung tanda pa niya yung eksenang binibiro niya ako sa isang studio kung saan sila may pictorials nina Ate Rox. Then kumana si ate ng "Nasa AUSTRIA daw kung wari... kapag tumatawag sa phone, number 2 yung area code na lumalabas!"

Kailan nga ba kami huling nagkita nitong mokong na ito... ah tama! Doon sa toilet ng Marikina Riverbank mall noong nagkita kami doon sabay sinabing: " Ang laki ng pinayat mo ah!"

Sabi niya sa profile niya sa Friendster:

I stand 5'9....kapag tumingkayad 6'1......
138lbs.....kapag d naligo 140lbs....
hahahahakhakkakhh...ehem! sori nasamid ako, san naba tayo
ahh....light complexion, PINAGHALOHALONG
Spanish,Bicolano,Batangenyo na maloko!
umm...always ...............................................


Talagang kalog nga itong mokong na ito!!! Hahaha!!! Peace tayo!!!

Bueno, seryoso na ito. Na-miss ko rin itong si Kuya. Our friendship dates back noong bagong usbong ng Star Circle Quest noong tag-init ng 2004. Tama, sa MORNING GIRLS WITH KRIS AND KORINA niya ako nakilala dahil sa pagiging eksenador ko! Perhaps, na-weirduhan sa akin si Kuya pati yung iba lalo na si Ate Rox nung nasa show ako!

It went like this.

Dapat sana ay friendship ang ie-establish ko sa Star Circle questors. It so happened na napunta sa sa JoRox fans club. I had no choice that time dahil yun lang ang alam ko para magkaroon ako ng ugnayan sa kanila, lalo na kela Ate Rox at Kuya Joross. Sa Morning Girls kasi, may isang staff na nag-provide sa amin ng isang index card kung saan doon namin isusulat yung mga greetings namin sa kanila. At dahil kasama ko ang mga maka-JoRox ay napa-isip ako kung ano ba ang dapat kong isulat na lagi nila akong maaalala. At pumasok bigla sa isip kong Espanyol ang gamitin ko. Hindi ko rin kasi expect na babasahin pala yun nila Kris Aquino at Korina Sanchez yung mga greetings namin. Dapat nga sana ay magsusulat din ako sa isang index card para kay Sandara Park (since medyo idol ko rin siya nun) na Koreano ang greeting at nakasulat pa sa Hangul.

At noong binasa na nga nila Kris Aquino at Korina Sanchez ang mga greetings namin ay nakita nga nila ang greeting ko - en IDIOMA CASTELLANO. At talagang na-aning ako dahil hinanap pa ako ng dalawang host dahil doon. At doon na nga ako nakilala nila Kuya Joross at Ate Rox! At nakalimutan ko pa palang pinili pa ako ng isang staff na magtanong kung wari sa question portion. At nang ako na nga ang magtatanong... TODONG KAPIT AKO SA MICROPHONE KO! Dahil talagang nakita na ako nila Kris at Korina nang harap-harapan pati na rin ng mga questors! Pero siyempre, todong poise pa rin ang ipinakita ko sa kanila dahil super-duper exposure ako sa mga camera at isasa-himpapawid ang episode na yun!

After ng taping ng episode, nakalusot ako sa mga guards papunta sa dressing nila. At nakita ako ni Hero Angeles na nakilala naman ako sa mukha at sa pangalan kong "JEREMY". At nadatnan din ako sa labas ni Ate Rox na sabay sabing: "Uy Jeremy, ang galing ha! Hanga ako sa iyo!"

Teka, hindi ba dapat patungkol kay Kuya Joross itong sinusulat ko? Hindi ko rin kasi alam kung ano ba ang dapat kong ilagay dito sa blog eh. Pero naalala ko pa yung time na nagkatampuhan kami dahil may nasabi ako. Pero OK na kami sa ngayon. Ako rin kasi ang unang nagpakumbaba at hindi ko rin siya natiis dahil idol ko siya. Ganoon ko rin siya ka-love as my own kuya. Pareho pa naman kaming November at malapit na rin ang kanyang 24th Birthday. Sana, magkaroon ako ng chance na magkita kami uli.



Ano ba yung hawak ni kuya sa larawan? Bat or Flying Fox?

Monday, 10 November 2008

21st Birthday

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO ME!

Haist, talagang tumatanda na nga ako...

Salamat sa mga nakaalala sa akin, especially my mommy!

I love you all!

Monday, 3 November 2008

Haizt!

Ano ba yan? Wala kaming duty? Feeling ko, si PADT yung sinasabi kanina ng bantay na umalis agad. Kinatok ko rin kasi yung Neonatal Intensive Care Unit para nga tignan kung tuloy yung duty namin. Pero wala nga yung clinical instructor namin! Bad trip talaga! Sayang pa pati yung pamasahe.

Anyway, kaninang tanghali ay pumunta kami ni mommy at Tita Yeng sa kolumbaryo sa Quezon City kung saan nakahimlay ang aking mga abwelo sa tuhod at ang esposo ng kapatid ng lolo ko. So far, medyo relaxing naman sa kolumbaryo. Bago nga kami pumunta sa mismong kolumbaryo ay pumunta muna kami sa simbahan. It was communion rite nang madatnan namin ang misa na presided ni Bishop Honesto Ongtioco, ang Auxilliary Bishop ng Cubao. Una ko nga palang nakita ang obispo sa Holy Family Parish Kamias nang magmisa siya doon dati.

After si simbahan at sa kolumbaryo ay pumunta naman ako sa ospital ng school ko upang kunin ang resulta ng drug test ko. Unfortunately, hindi maimprenta ang resulta. But the good thing is that I AM NEGATIVE IN THE DRUG TEST! Bongga diba?

At siya naman ang pag-serve ko sa San Exequiel Moreno Parish kasama ang Living Hope Chorale. After ng service namin ay nag-meeting naman kami. Gosh, what a forum! Pero amin na lang kung ano yung mga pinag-usapan namin! Pero hindi naman ganoong ka-sensitibo.

Hay, ano ba yan... kung anu-ano na tuloy ang mga nilagay ko dito!

Thursday, 30 October 2008

Pressurised

Pressurized... Pressurised...

But whatever spelling it may be, that's what I'm feeling right now!

Ang hirap talaga kumuha ng grades kanina! Naka-hold pa pati ang grades ko ngayong semestre. But I am certain na pumasa ako. Kailangan ko pa tuloy asikasuhin bukas. Imbes na nakakapagpahinga na lang ako bukas, IMBEY! Parang nakakatamad na ring mag-ayos. Pero sayang naman kung hindi. NCM 105 na ako.

At nakipag-inuman pa pati ako kagabi.

Mayroon rin pala akong nai-open up habang lasing na ako. Sinasabi ko na nga simula pa kagabi eh. Hindi na lang sana ako nag-ambag ng pang-inom. Hinayaan ko na lang sana yung mga kasama ko na uminom, pati yung taong nakatampuhan ko.

Speaking of that person na nakatampuhan ko, alangan pa rin ako sa palagay ko kung hindi nga siya galit o hindi lang niya sinasabi sa amin na galit siya. But guess what? Nakakahinayang pa rin na nasira na lang nang ganoon yung samahan namin bilang magkaibigan.

Perhaps, that person was laughing at my back noong nalasing ako. I admit, OA akong tao. Kung sa kanya ay ganoon na lamang, inaamin kong masakit naman yun sa akin. Gusto ko sana siyang kausapin para mawala na yung paghihirap ko nang matagal, pero pinipigilan pa rin ako ng aking pride. Napagsalitaan ko pa siya ng kung ano-ano nung pauwi na kami. Taong simbahan pa man din ako at ganoon yung mga salitang lumabas sa akin sa likuran niya.

Kaya nga VIRTUALLY PRESSURISED ako. Pero nakakahinayang ding nasira na lang nang ganoon ang nabuo naming pagkakaibigan. All because of my foolishness.

Monday, 27 October 2008

Bitterness

Ang sarap talagang damhin ang hanging amihan. Talagang nalalapit na naman ang Pasko. Ngunit sana ay maayos naman ang magiging Pasko ko. Ang dami ko pa ring dapat harapin, lalo na ang pag-aaral ko. Ilang buwan na lang ay ganap na akong Registered Nurse. Sana nga ay malampasan ko ang lahat ng hirap na susuungin ko.

Ang saya talaga nang makasama ko sila "Maria" at "Gina". Nakasama ko nga pala sila sa isang duty nitong mga huling linggo. Super na-miss ko sila kaya nilubos ko kanina yung oras para makasama sila nang matagal.

I was at the school submitting my provincial duty receipt when I saw them two. At nakita ko nga sila doon. Sinamahan ko sila sa school. Siyempre, miss na miss ko sila.

Habang tumatagal ang mga kwentuhan namin, nagawa ka ring makapag-open up tungkol sa sobrang hinanakit ko. Imagine, lang gabi rin akong tumatangis dahil sa sobrang sakit ng kalooban ko. At naka-relate nga rin sila sa sakit ko.

Pareho rin pala kami ni Gina na may hinanakit ding dinarama. Mabuti pa si Maria, wala nang hard feelings at nakapag-move on na siya sa nakaraang hapdi. Pero mas malala pa rin sa akin, gayong hindi naman ako napasok sa isang kumplikadong relasyon. Ang sakit talaga. Ilang gabi din yung mga sandaling naaalala ko ang mga pangyayari na bigla na lang magiging sakit at hapdi na higit pa sa sinapak. Halos naiiyak na ako noong kakwentuhan ko silang dalawa. Pero ayaw ko rin namang magmukhang tanga.

Bakit kaya ganoon? Tila mas pinapahalagahan ko ang mga taong nagdudulot sa akin ng hirap at sakit at tinatalikuran ko ang mga taong lubos na lumulugod sa akin? Talaga nga bang malaki akong TANGA?

Marahil nga, isa akong TANGA. Pilit ko pa ring pinanghahawakan ang mga ano mang nakakasira lang ng kasayahan ko. I confess, I'm overacting again. For the past nights that I've been crying, I still haven't learned.

As I am typing right now, I'm trying to hold back my tears. Alam kong may mas karapat-dapat akong tangisan. Yun ang mga taong lubos na nagpapahalaga at nagmamahal sa akin na akin lamang binaliwala. Yun ang mga taong lumuha na rin dahil sa akin ngunit hindi ko man lang binigyang pansin.

But still, I am stupid. Oo, TANGA nga.

Sunday, 26 October 2008

Roselle Nava - Mahal Mo Ba'y 'Di Na Ako




Hindi mo ba naaalala ang katulad ko
Wala na bang ganap sa puso at damdamin mo
Tuluyan bang nilimot ang lahat
Wala man lamang kahit na bakas
At ang pag-ibig natin ba'y talagang magwawakas

Hindi ka ba nanghihinayang
Nangyari ba'y ganoon na lamang
Wala na ba ang init ng pag-ibig mo
Naglaho ba sa puso mo
Kaya't ngayon ang mahal mo'y 'di na ako

Siya ba'y katulad kong kayang tawanan ang hapdi
At kung sakaling iwan mo ay kayang ngumiti
At sana man lang ay malaman niya
Hanggang ngayo'y minamahal kita
Maghihintay pa rin ang puso kong nag-iisa

Hindi ka ba nanghihinayang
Nangyari ba'y ganoon na lamang
Wala na ba ang init ng pag-ibig mo
Naglaho ba sa puso mo
Kaya't ngayon ang mahal mo'y 'di na ako

Hindi ka ba nanghihinayang
Nangyari ba'y ganoon na lamang
Wala na ba ang init ng pag-ibig mo
Naglaho ba sa puso mo
Kaya't ngayon ang mahal mo'y 'di na ako


Saturday, 25 October 2008

Roselle Nava - Bakit Nga Ba Mahal Kita




Kapag ako ay nagmahal
Isa lamang at wala nang iba pa
Iaalay buong buhay
Lumigaya ka lang, lahat ay gagawin

Tumingin ka man sa iba
Magwawalang-kibo na lang itong puso ko
Walang sumbat na maririnig
Patak ng luha ko ang iniwang saksi

Bakit nga ba mahal kita
Kahit 'di pinapansin ang damdamin ko
'Di mo man ako mahal, ito pa rin ako
Nagmamahal nang tapat sa 'yo

Bakit nga ba mahal kita
Kahit na may mahal ka mang iba
Ba't baliw na baliw ako sa iyo
Hanggang kailan ako magtitiis
O, bakit nga ba mahal kita

Ano man ang sabihin nila
Pagtingin ko sa 'yo'y 'di kailan man magmamaliw
Buong buhay paglilingkuran kita
'Di naghahangad ng ano mang kapalit

Tumingin ka man sa iba
Magwawalang-kibo na lang itong puso ko
Walang sumbat na maririnig
Patak ng luha ko ang iniwang saksi

Bakit nga ba mahal kita
Kahit 'di pinapansin ang damdamin ko
'Di mo man ako mahal, ito pa rin ako
Nagmamahal nang tapat sa iyo


Bakit nga ba mahal kita
Kahit na may mahal ka mang iba
Ba't baliw na baliw ako sa iyo
Hanggang kailan ako magtitiis
O, bakit nga ba mahal kita

O, bakit nga ba mahal kita

Thursday, 16 October 2008

NCM 104 Over

*MEDICAL-SURGICAL NURSING 2
*PEDIATRIC NURSING
*PSYCHIATRIC NURSING
*COMMUNICABLE DISEASES

Hopefully, I'm done with those brain-bleeding subjects on NCM 104.

Just as expected, I was with GOLDEN BOYS during our Skills Laboratory 104 exams. I missed them a lot. At least, I've had a chance being with them even for a while.

I'm gonna miss also my groupmates in NCM 104 RLE. Thanks to them.

Guess what? I'm still not certain about my fate in NCM 104. Honestly speaking, it was really BRAIN-BLEEDING. And I'm not certain if I'm gonna pass NCM 104.

Through heaven's mercy, I may be able to be in NCM 105, as well as in TCAP.

Sunday, 12 October 2008

Teri de Sario - Falling

I'm afraid to fly
And I don't know why
I'm jealous of the people
who are not afraid to die

It's just that I recall
Back when I was small
Someone promised me
that they'd catch me
And then they let me fall

And now I'm fallin'
Fallin' fast again
Why do I always take a fall
When I fall in love

You think by now I've learned
Play with fire you get burned
But fire can be also warm
And that's why I return

Turn and walk away
That's what I should do
My head says go and find the door
My heart says I'll find you

And now I'm fallin', fallin’ fast again
Why do I always take a fall when I fall in love

It always turns out the same
Loving someone, losing myself
Only got me to blame
Help me I'm fallin', fallin'

Catch me if you can
Maybe this time I'll have it all
Maybe I’ll take it after all

Maybe this time I won’t fall
When I fall in love ...

Saturday, 11 October 2008

Lingering Memories

Oh my, I thought that it's over and nothing to worry about. But still, I longing for someone's presence. I really don't why, but it still bothers me somehow.

Just as yesterday when I was with my long-time friend who just broke up with her boyfriend some few days ago, we both went into our friends flat to share some stories.

It went like this.

When I was with "SARAH", my long-time friend, inside the school campus, she told me that she and her boyfriend have just broke up a few days ago. She was mourning for the loss of their relationship as lovers. For long, they've been boyfriends and girlfriends. But it suddenly slipped away in just a snap, all because of his ex-boyfriend's "temptation".

I was madly shocked after Sarah told me about it. I could still remember when I was sharing some stories with his boyfriend about Sarah. And he said that he truly loves Sarah so much. Through his ex's warm utterance, it was convincing enough. But everything was nothing but irony.

We were at the flat of Sarah's friend after we knew the truth. It so happened that Sarah's friend was the companion of "Lee". And we spent our time talking about our hurts from deep within our feelings.

As I was spending my time there, I decided to bid myself GOODBYE through SMS to the one I truly loved. It was hard for me to do it but I can't anymore carry the pain inside me. For the past nights, I did nothing but to cry and mope. Just like Sarah, we haven't had much rest. So our eyebags are almost like travel baggages. But then, we only laughed at our past moments.

And then I went to a bible study. True enough, the feeling was more rejuvenating yet fortifying after our meditation inside the adoration chapel. And I prayed that everything should be alright.

Hopefully, I am happy as soon as I wake up by tomorrow. And I hope that I may be able to forget the pain from the past. After all, there are still a lot of people who appreciate as who and what I am

Thursday, 9 October 2008

Sarah Geronimo - Ibulong Sa Hangin




Halata ba sa aking mga mata
Na ako ay may nais ipadama
Ngunit ako ay nangangamba
Baka may masaktang iba

Halata ba sa kilos ko't galaw
Puso ko'y may nais isigaw
Ngunit ‘di mabigkas ng labi
Nag-aalangan kung tama o mali

Ano bang dapat kong gawin
Sa magulong isip at damdamin
Hindi ko yata kayang sabihin
Wala na akong magagawa kundi
Ibulong sa hangin

Halata ko sa iyong mga mata na
Mayroon kang nais pabatid
Sana'y hanggang dito na lamang
Pagkat ayaw ko rin masaktan

Ano bang dapat kong gawin
Sa magulong isip at damdamin
Hindi ko yata kayang sabihin
Wala na akong magagawa kundi
Ibulong sa hangin

Sa hangin kita hahagkan at yayakapin
Huwag kang mag-alala
Hindi ito malalaman ng iba

Ano bang dapat kong gawin
Sa magulong isip at damdamin
Hindi ko yata kayang sabihin
Wala na akong magagawa kundi
Ibulong sa hangin

Wala na akong magagawa kundi
Ibulong sa hangin...

Wednesday, 8 October 2008

A Matter Of Regret

By the way, my mother has just gave birth... another sibling that I, my sister, and my brother have... so is this life...

After my happy moments comes the utter sadness and regret...

I don't know what to say for now...

But guess what?

Red Horse is calling me!!!

But wait...

I have to express off first my present thoughts through this blog of mine...

I should have been true to myself...

But my pride, as what I was telling before, has almost enveloped me...

Oh my...

Sad Jhemai... sad Merrick...

我很抱歉。

ごめんなさい。

미안합니다.

I AM REALLY SORRY...

Monday, 6 October 2008

Beyoncé Knowles - Listen




Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed Aside or turned
Into your own
All 'cause you won't listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete

Now I am done believing you
You don't know not what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I got to find my own
My own...


Listen - Beyoncé

Sunday, 5 October 2008

Bogeria Per Algú

Aw, how tired of me. There are a lot of things to do...
I should finish first my case presentation for my duty...
Then I will be having my community health nursing duty in Navotas City...
I have to manage my co-members in SUTIOC clan...
And I have to prepare for our incoming final exams...

Yet, I am still drowned within the depths of my utter silliness. And guess what? I still don't know whether I am happy or not. As a matter of fact, I have mixed emotions as of now. Indeed, I have nothing but only childish craziness of mine.

Daydreaming... singing... talking to myself... those are the things that I usually do. But guess what? I am more weird regarding with those silly matters that I do.

To be honest, I am serious when I feel something special for someone, either just an infatuation or already true love. Indeed, I am bold of expressing myself about those things. Unfortunately, I can only express those ones either through here or through my diary.

I admit, I am weak of expressing myself verbally to someone. After all, the high sense of pride is my tremendous sickness. Even though I know that my pride can only ruin me, I still can't escape from it. In fact, it has almost enveloped my heart and soul. And in return, I made a lot of regrets only because of the so-called pride.

I know that there's nothing wrong in expressing my true feelings for someone. But I am only afraid of the consequences that I might encounter as I go along with my crisscrossed life. True, I am afraid that the ones who are special to me will forever be gone from me. After all, I verily consider them as my blessings from above. Even though I am imperfect, I am still grateful that there are still good things that come to me from heaven.

And now, there is only one person who is in my mind right now. I guess, you readers already know that person is also very special to me, though I never had a chance to share some things about me to that person. I guess, it's not yet the end. I can still manage to get along with that person. I don't know why that person became so special to me. But my instinct tells me that I should be happy for that person never made me feel embarrassed and hurt.

But if I only get nothing, then I still have to move on with the constant flow of life. Anyway, there is still a better future that awaits beyond the horizon of time and space. So will it be then.

Saturday, 4 October 2008

NYER! NYER! NYER!



NYER! Kakagaling ko lang sa Guagua, Pampanga dahil sa aking provincial duty. In fairness, nakatulog ako pagakarating ko kanina sa bahay.

NYER! Guess what? Naging masaya ako sa 6-day stay ko doon! Disregarding the interior image of our dormitory, I felt somewhat safe and at ease.



NYER! Thanks nga pala sa dalawa kong nag-gagandahang clinical instructors na sina Ma'am KRING at Ma'am SHIELD.

NYER! MARAMING MARAMING SALAMAT sa Group 68-D na naging bahagi na rin ng puso ng isip ko, lalo na ang GOLDEN BOYS!



NYER! Mami-miss ko talaga kayo! Sa mga GOLDEN BOYS... MAHAL NA MAHAL KO KAYONG MGA HINAYUPAK! Hahahaha! Mga buwiset kayo! Tama bang kuhanan niyo ako ng picture habang natutulog ako?!? Hehehe, peace!

NYER! Sorry na sa pagiging emotero ko... naunawaan ko na kayo kung paano kayo manglambing ng mga taong nakakasama niyo (NYER! LAMBING nga ba yung ginawa niyo sa akin? Hehehe!) Pero promise... deep from my heart and mind, hindi ako mapalagay kapag hindi ko kayo kasama... Kay Kuya JL, malaki ang tiwala ko sa iyo... at panatag din ang kalooban ko sa iyo... AYABYU KUYA!




NYER! Sa mga GANDARAH GURLZ diyan, lalo na si SMC... thanks for being so good to me! Ayabyu siz! Alam mo nang malaki ang tiwala ko sa iyo!

NYER! Sana, magkaroon ako ng pagkakataong maka-bonding ko ang grupo niyo... lalo na yung mga "NANLALAMIG"... you know who you are! Peace tayo ha!

NYER NYER NYER! Kakaaning naman ang expression na ito! Pero sa loob ko, tila tawa ako nang tawa kapag naririnig ko ang NYER! Hahahahaha! NYER! NYER! NYER! Hay, kaaningan ko nga naman! NYER! Hindi siya NERD, pero basta... NYER!

NYER! There are some things that should be said and done but were not... how sad... if only I could lessen down my sense of PRIDE... kaya nga OUT OF REACH... huhuhu...

愛しています! 사랑합니다!


Tuesday, 30 September 2008

Sarah Geronimo - I Still Believe In Loving You


Just when I thought of love is here to stay
Just when I thought you never ever go away
You said it’s time for you to go
But I’m not sure I really know why you are leaving...

And when we finally said our last goodbye
I’ll never make it hard for you
You won’t even see me cry
And thought those tears inside of me
I’m gonna make your heart go free...

Before you leave
there’s just one thing
that I want you to know...

I still believe in loving you
Inspite of all the hurt that I’m going through
Even if again and again you would break my heart
One thing would never change
I still believe in loving you...

If you tell me that you’ll be alright
I’ll never let you see me bloom
But I’ll keep our love alive
And thought I’m feeling incomplete
I guess that this is what you need...

Before you leave
there’s just one thing
that I want you to know...

I still believe in loving you
Inspite of all the hurt that I’m going through
Even if again and again you would break my heart
One thing would never change
I still believe in loving you...


Sunday, 28 September 2008

BoA - ID; Peace B (Korean)



세상 무서운 걸 아무것도
모른다고 말하겠죠
츨거움만 찿는다고
가상 현실 속에 의미없는
상자 속에 갇혈서
살아가지 말라

흘로내린 물은 절대
다시 울라갈 수
없는 것
나를 이해할 수 없겠죠

난내 세상있죠
Peace B is my network ID
우린 달라요 갈 수
없는 세계는 없죠
하나로 담긴 세상
Connecting in my neverland
추카추카추
이젠 몸출 수가
없어요

보여지는 것이
나의 진보라고 말도
하시겠죠
그게 다가 아닌대도
우리만의 언어
우리만의 표헌늘로 가득잔
우리만의 세상

그 속에는 나와 같은
꿈을 꾸는 친구가 있죠
평화로운 세계속에서

난내 세상있죠
Peace B is my network ID
우린 달라요 갈 수
없는 세계는 없죠
하나로 담긴 세상
Connecting in my neverland
추카추카추
이젠 몸출 수가
없어요

서로 않이 다른 것도
이상할게 없죠
세대차이 뿐인걸
뮈가 어떤가요
에딘부터 우린 하나인걸
나를 믿버세요

그 속에는 나와 같은
꿈을 꾸는 친구가 있죠
평화로운 세계속에서

난내 세상있죠
Peace B is my network ID
우린 달라요 갈 수
없는 세계는 없죠
하나로 담긴 세상
Connecting in my neverland
추카추카추
이젠 몸출 수가
없어요

난내 세상있죠
Peace B is my network ID
우린 달라요 갈 수
없는 세계는 없죠
하나로 담긴 세상
Connecting in my neverland
추카추카추
이젠 몸출 수가
없어요



Saturday, 13 September 2008

Akala Ko... Biyernes Pa Lang Ngayon!

Kaaning!

Pumunta pa naman ako sa PJP 404 dahil doon ang kwarto ko kapag MS 2...

Nagtaka nga ako kung bakit iba yung mag estudyante doon...

Sabi nga ng teacher ko...

SABADO NA NGAYON!!!

KAANING!

Thursday, 11 September 2008

Vincent Bueno



REAL NAME: Vincent Mendoza Bueno
BIRTHDATE: December 10, 1985
BIRTHPLACE: Vienna, Austria (Wien, Österreich)
LANGUAGES: German (Deutsch), English (Englisch), Tagalog

OK, his picture above is from his MySpace (but I don't know if it is his own MySpace acount).

Anyway, since he won in MUSICAL! Die Show, I felt a sort of great admiration for him. Surprising enough, he is fluent in Filipino language. The fact the he has a strong Austrian heritage, the Filipino spirit in him is very ostensible.

Seine Stimme ist so fantastisch! Aber er ist nicht hier in den Philippinen bekannt, außer für diejenigen, die ihn vergöttert.

Puwedeng Tagalog na lang? Hahaha...

Vincent, kung makikita mo man itong blog ko, nais kung humingi ng paumanhin kung nai-muestra ko ang larawan mo rito. Pero talagang idol kita kahit na hindi ka na ipinapakita rito sa Pilipinas.

Sana, magkaroon kayo ng duet ni Lea Salonga kung sakali mang magko-concert kayo, either dito sa Pilipinas o diyan sa Awstriya. At talagang panonoorin ko kayong pareho. Any mellow song will do, lalu na kapag pang-broadway! Talagang idol ko kayo ni Lea Salonga!

More power and success sa iyo. And if ever, please pay a visit dito sa bansa natin!


Wednesday, 3 September 2008

Before Mid-term examinations

Yep, I'm drunk as soon as I am writing this blog of mine.

And I don't know what should I do in this blog of mine.

But as soon as my drunkenness subsides, I have to use this opportunity to write my latest blog entry.

So much of my silly acts....

But I should review my previous lessons so as I may able to answer my test questions as effective as I can be...

Well?

Sunday, 31 August 2008

Se7en - 와줘



참 많이 미웠어
너의 모든 게
오래 된 사진 속에
날 보며 웃고 선 고운 네 표정들까지

자고 나면 내게로
돌아 올 거라고
지겹게 너를 잊지 못 하는
내가 더 미웠어

이젠 다 잊을 거란
지킬 수도 없는 약속 하고
너를 보낸 기억에
자꾸 난 지쳐만 가는데 Yeah baby

돌아 와줘 멀지 않다면 (않다면)
아직 나를 사랑한다면 (한다면)
아직까지 난 그 자리에 (자리에)
널 기다리고 있어 Yeah yay

이미 다른 사랑 한다면 (한다면)
벌써 나를 다 잊었다면 조금만 (조금만)
더 기다릴게
더 미워할 수 있도록 Yeah

참 오래 지났지
네가 떠난지
사랑한 기억은 다
첨부터 없었던 일처럼 모두 잊었어

그런데 왜 이렇게
눈물이 나는지
너를 만나던 거릴 걸으면
또 힘이 든 건지

이젠 다 잊었다고
웃을 수도 있단 말도 하고 Yay
너의 기억 하나도
없다고 믿고 지냈는데 Yeah baby

돌아 와줘 멀지 않다면 (않다면)
아직 나를 사랑한다면 (한다면)
아직까지 난 그 자리에 (자리에)
널 기다리고 있어 Yeah yay

이미 다른 사랑 한다면 (한다면)
벌써 나를 다 잊었다면 조금만 (조금만)
더 기다릴게
더 미워할 수 있도록 Yeah

너는 없는데 (너는 없는데)
벌써 떠났는데
너를 잊지 못 하고
니가 꼭 돌아 올 거라고
내게로

믿고 있는 걸 모르고서 (모르고)
널 다 잊었다 믿었나 봐 (믿었나 봐)
난 아직 끝까지
널 미워 못 하고
그리워만 하나봐 Yeah yay

행복하게 살지 말아줘 (오 날 떠나서)
나를 떠나 더 힘들어 줘
다시 내게 오고 싶도록
Baby Baby Baby

(언제라도 내가 생각나)
혹시 내게로 돌아 올까봐
언제나
(난 여전히 이 곳에)
널 기다리고 있어

Friday, 29 August 2008

Se7en - Come Back To Me



So hard not to think about it
It's every step I take
And heaven knows I'm trying
But it gets awfully hard
When your heart is this broken

Visions of your lovely face
As I awake, I have this feeling
That you're here and beside me
How silly of me, I know

All the pain will go away
So I say it, here I am again
I gotta face another day
I'm so tired, I need you once again, oh baby

How am I suppose to carry on
I find myself singing the same old song
If you hear me, have it in your heart
But please come back to me (oh baby)

I'll be right here if you need someone
If you hold another I'll be moving on
As easy as said
Just hope that I can see the road

Oh how it's been so long
It seems a lifetime passed
These memories that linger
Soon as I think they have gone
They only gotten stronger

And so I'm getting through a day
But every move was made was always you and I together
It's hard to believe I'm lonely

Is there gonna be a day
I can see the word to make me better
I know there has to be a way
So if you listen and hear me out oh, baby

How am I suppose to carry on,
I find myself singing the same old song
If you hear me, have it in your heart
But please come back to me (oh baby)

I'll be right here if you need someone
If u hold another I'll be moving on
As easy as said
Just hope that I can see the road

You're one in a million,
Dunno how we got so wrong
I thought it was so simple then
Now I know, now I know, how it goes
To let it go

Can there be a chance for you and I?
Before I really make up my mind
Oh how I miss you
I never would kiss you
I'm speaking it from my heart

How am I suppose to carry on,
I find myself singing the same old song
If you hear me, have it in you heart

I'll be right here if you need someone
If you hold another I'll be moving on
Just hope that I can see the road
Come back to me baby

Saturday, 23 August 2008

Fruitful Enough?

Oh my, it's been a bit long since I have entered my latest blog entry.

Before, I used to get myself online almost every day. But now, my financial expenses are ostensibly divided. Food stuff, mobile phone load, even some school-related stuff contributes to my financial expenses division.

Since the rebirth of my previous clan, I was then very active in private messaging and group messaging. As an officer of that clan, I should get myself updated on the clan progress, such as admitting new members, recording data, and the like.

To be honest, I almost did not have time in my studies. And my grades are somewhat so-so. Yep, it's somewhat frustrating to myself and to my mother as well.

But then, I should prioritize my studies more rather than my other stuffs that are not related to my real future triumph. After all, I still want to fulfill my hard-to-reach dreams. I don't know to myself but I'm getting stupid and stubborn over and over.

I guess, I need to reflect to myself first. But when will I be a better person?

Sunday, 3 August 2008

Se7en - 会いたい




「楽しかったね」小さく呟き微笑んだ君
「まだそばにいたよ」込み上げる弱音飲み込んだ僕
鳴り響く電車のベル無情に二人を引き裂く
絡ませた指と指を解いて別々の場所へ旅立つ

会いたいと思う会いたいと願う
愛だけがくれる喜びに触れたい
会いたいと願うだけで火照る身体
冷ます術はその温もりだけ知っているのに

踏み込まぬように互いの暮らしを侵さないように
だけど最近はメールや電話じゃ距離を埋めきれない
今までの恋とは違う淀みない気持ちが溢れてく
どこまでも透明なその瞳見つめ続けて溺れたい

会いたいと思う会いたいと願う
二人出会う場所で叫んでいるから
そしていつの日かそして永遠の誓いを
立てられるその時がくる事信じてるから

眠れない夜で闇に包まれて君を求め彷徨い続ける
愛しているよ壊したいほどに泣き濡れて朝を迎え入れる

会いたいと思う会いたいと願う
愛だけがくれる喜びに触れたい
会いたいと願うだけで火照る身体
冷ます術はその温もりだけ知っているのに

Saturday, 2 August 2008

Se7en - 잘할께




I'm loving you
믿을 수 밖에 없는 말
거짓말처럼 뒤바뀐 내 작은 말
I'm missing you
메아리처럼 들리는 말
허공속에 외치고 외치는
내 작은 말

나는 왜 니 앞에서
처음 나처럼 웃고 마는지
돌아서면 이렇게 아픈데

아파야 된다면
그 아픔마저 다 참을께
서러워 기대고 싶어져도
나 꾹 참아볼께
버려야 된다면
남김없이 버려도 볼께
마지막까지 잡고 있던
자존심까지 모두다

잊지 못할 기억 한 귀퉁이라도
혹시나 짐은 아닐까
멍한 날 가다듬고
손 때 묻은 너와 내 사진첩만이
행복했던 내가 있었음을
말하는데

세상에 둘도 없는
사랑이라 불렀잖아
왜 이제는 못 부르는지

아파야 된다면
그 아픔마저 다 참을께
서러워 기대고 싶어져도
나 꾹 참아볼께
버려야 된다면
남김없이 버려도 볼께
마지막까지 잡고 있던
자존심까지 모두다

셀 수도 없을만큼
나 한움큼 쏟아내고
날 위로할 차례인지
아님 널 잊을 차례인지
미친 척 하고라도
사랑한다 외칠래
수많은 인연중에
나 기억하라고

기다릴 수 있단 말은
내 안에 아껴 둘께
아끼고 아껴서
닳을 때쯤엔 되뇌어 볼께
만약 먼 훗날에
다시 시작할 수만 있다면
나 네게 하고 싶은 첫 마디
진심으로 나 잘할께

Friday, 1 August 2008

Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone



I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days felt like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side...

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Did you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you...

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on my floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do...

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take...

Did you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you...

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah...

All I ever wanted it was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me
Yeah...

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you...





AVRIL LAVIGNE
WHEN YOU'RE GONE
THE BEST DAMN THING
RCA RECORDS CANADA, 2007

Wednesday, 30 July 2008

More Than 1000 Words


KINOSHITA AYUMI


Another sort of existing importance for someone...

But happiness and contentment has truly enveloped me...

Despite the fact that it was an intoxicating time for me lately, I still have managed to make myself happy...

But now, tears from my eyes are now falling down...

But guess what? These tears conceal my happy yet sad moments...

But I am still grateful that I became happy once more...

Hoping that I might be able to catch some time to indulge myself into joyfulness...


Friday, 25 July 2008

Marvin Raymundo




REAL NAME: Marvin Wijangco
BIRTHDATE: UNKNOWN
BIRTHPLACE: City of San Fernando, Pampanga
LANGUAGES: Kapampangan, Tagalog, English

OK, this serious-looking guy is also my kabalen. But guess what? His prominent image proves that he really belongs to the gorgeous Kapampangan race... e wari? So is our gorgeous race. Truly undisputable. And who knows? We Kapampangans will soon dominate the Philippine society along with Tagalogs! Wahahaha!



And how is the MANHUNT INTERNATIONAL 2008? Mr. Personality, eh? And take a very close look at his last name... WEE HAN KO! It also proves that some Kapampangans have had long history with the early Chinese traders especially during the existence of Song Empire.


To MARVIN:
OK lang ba na gamitin ko yung mga photos mo dito sa blog ko? Tutal, idol dakaman! E ka sana memwa kanaku, huhuhu! Peace po tayo, neh? :D



LUID CABALEN!

Monday, 21 July 2008

4 Malls In One Day!

SM MARILAO
It was my first time to be there. It is somewhat that the ambience of the mall is good. It's quite spacious indeed. But I never had much time to tour myself in that mall. After all, I will have another chance to make myself present in that mall.


SM PAMPANGA
From Bulacan, I arrived in Pampanga at around 3:00 PM. Guess, it was my second time to be in that mall. Compare to SM Marilao, SM Pampanga is more spacious and it has more stores and food chains than in SM Marilao. Since I am of Kapampangan ancestry, I was talking to myself in KAPAMPANGAN LANGUAGE when I got there. But still, there are significant Tagalog speakers in that mall. After all, Tagalog speakers are everywhere. As to confess, I am not a good speaker of Kapampangan, though I can somehow express myself in our beautiful language.
Speaking of my stay in SM Pampanga, I felt somewhat at ease. After all, being there in my province is worth it.


ROBINSONS PAMPANGA
Just across the street from SM Pampanga, there lies another mall. But I did not stay there for long. Although there are some good stalls there, I may say that they are not that good. But guess what? I got BLACK DEVIL ROSE FLAVOUR! I'm sure my nicotine consumption will crazily rise up! DAMN!


MALABON CITISQUARE
After more than an hour of ride, I was back in my hometown. Inside the mall, I just took some conditioned air and to relax myself as well. I was not there for long - just about some 30 minutes.


Dapat nga sana, makikipag-inuman pa ako sa dalawa kong kasama na kakalabas lang nila mula sa eskwela. Pero pagod na rin ako.

Isa lang ang masasabi ko... I AM FREE!

Sunday, 13 July 2008

Proud to be ASIAN! Proud to be FILIPINO! Proud to be KAPAMPANGAN!

Proud to be ASIAN!

Well, I find myself happy whenever I cheer for the artists and celebrities from the Philippines (of course), Japan, and Korea. Of course, I have to include Taiwan, China, Singapore, Malaysia, Thailand, Brunei, and Indonesia.


Proud to be FILIPINO!
Kund hindi dahil sa aking sinilangang lupa na siyang kumupkop at umaruga sa akin, hindi ako buo ngayon. Wari mang maraming suliranin ang kinakaharap ng Pilipinas, ipinapanalangin ko na malutasan na ang lahat ng suliranin na siyang sumisira sa mukha ng aming bansa, ang Perlas ng Silangan!


Proud to be KAPAMPANGAN!
Kanita, e nakuman biyasa neng Kapampangan. Kapilan ku mu mebiyasa nita. Siyempre, Kapampangan ku angkan, agyang Tagalog la reng kapatad ku king Bulacan. Ing ima, makisabi ya kanaku king Kapampangan patse atin yang sabyan kanakung importanti o kumpidensyal. Agyang makananu, biyasa ku Kapampangan. Pero masanting ya ing kekaming amanu neh?


By the way, I would like to congratulate Wu Chun (吴尊/吳尊) and Calvin Chen (辰亦儒)for the success of their promotional tour here in the Philippines. Guess, I saw you guys on Entertainment Live, Pinoy Dream Academy, ASAP '08, and The Buzz (on ABS-CBN). I hope that you'll return back here for a real concert!

Wednesday, 9 July 2008

Se7en - 문신



이제는 혼자가 제법 익숙해졌어
널 생각해도 웃을 수 있어 다른 사람도 만나보고 싶어
하지만 아직 아냐 자신이 없어

널 밀어냈던 널 비워냈던
힘든 시간을 헤메이다 지쳐
그 오랜 시간이 누구를 위한 건지
왜 떠나야 했을 까 다시 가슴이 메어와

넌 마치 문신처럼 내 안에 분신처럼
지우려고 애를 써도
지울 수 없는걸 잘 알고 있는 걸
이제는 너를 미워하는 맘 보다
다른 사람 곁에서 너를 못 잊고
살아갈까봐 그게 더 두려워

언젠가 한번은 마주칠 수 있겠지
그땐 웃으며 말하고 싶어
잘 지내냐고 나는 바빴다고

하지만 마음뿐야 자신이 없어
니가 미워서 목이 메어서
나도 모르게 눈물 을 보이면

넌 웃어 주겠니 누구를 위한건지
왜 떠나야 했을 까 다시 가슴이 메여와

넌 마치 문신처럼 내 안에 분신처럼
지우려고 애를 써도
지울 수 없는걸 잘 알고 있는 걸
이제는 너를 미워하는 맘 보다
다른 사람 곁에서 너를 못 잊고
살아갈까봐 그게 더 두려워

나보다 더 행복해 줄 래
널 더 미워할 수 있게
나를 정말 사랑했다면
너역시 가끔씩 지난 내 생각에 한숨 쉬어도 괜찮아

세월이 흘러 가도 눈물을 흘려 봐도
이제 와서 후회해도
소용이 없는 걸 이미 늦었는 걸
이제는 너를 사랑하는 맘 보다
너의 사람 곁에서 나를 못잊고
살아갈까봐 그게 더 두려워 나도 모르게 그게 더 두려워


Saturday, 5 July 2008

My mission... was it truly accomplished?

I don't know if I should be happy in what I did lately...

A letter that I gave...

And I wrote that letter many weeks ago...

But I can feel that I'm not happy and contented...

For years that I've been accomplishing a lot of missions and tasks...

The mission that I made...

I must say...

UNSATISFYING!

Thursday, 3 July 2008

Compleanno

Happy birthday to MISS ELISA ROMERO y PANGILINAN...

My ever mother...

For almost 21 years of taking care of me...

Thanks for everything...

Sorry sa pagiging super pasaway at suwail...

I know that I'm always wrong...

But I love you very much!

Salamat sa lahat... sorry kung dito ko lang ipinababatid ang mga saloobin ko...

Marakal a salamat keka! Kaluguran daka!

Thursday, 26 June 2008

KIMONO and HANBOK



The people and the doggy dummy are the characters of TOKUSOU SENTAI DEKARANGER (特捜戦隊デカレンジャー) from the above image. Aren't they cute?

Anyway, I'm going to talk first about the tremendous KIMONO.

Kimono (着物/기모노), is the national costume of Japan. riginally the word "kimono" literally meant thing to wear (ki "wearing" and mono "thing") but now has come to denote a particular type of traditional full-length garment.

Kimono are T-shaped, straight-lined robes that fall to the ankle, with collars and wide, full-length sleeves. Kimono are wrapped around the body, always with the left side over the right (except when dressing the dead for burial) and secured by a wide belt called an "obi", which is usually tied at the back. Kimono are generally worn with traditional footwear (especially "zouri" or "geta") and split-toe socks (tabi).

Today, kimono are most often worn by women, and on special occasions. Traditionally, unmarried women wore a style of kimono called "furisode", which have floor-length sleeves, on special occasions. A few older women and even fewer men still wear kimono on a daily basis. Men wear kimono most often at weddings, tea ceremonies, and other very special or very formal occasions. Professional sumo wrestlers are often seen in kimono because they are required to wear traditional Japanese dress whenever appearing in public. They commonly wear the kind of casual Japanese attire that is referred to as "yukata", which is of plain unlined cotton.

Kimono hobbyists in Japan can take courses on how to put on and wear kimono. Classes cover selecting seasonally and event-appropriate patterns and fabrics, matching the kimono undergarments and accessories to the kimono, layering the undergarments according to subtle meanings, selecting and tying obi, and other topics. There are also clubs devoted to kimono culture, such as "Kimono de Ginza".




The characters are from GOONG (궁/宫), or more known as PRINCESS HOURS in the Philippines.

Now, I'm gonna talk about the alluring HANBOK.

Hanbok (한복/韓服) or Joseon-ot (조선옷/朝鮮옷) is the traditional dress of North Korea and South Korea. t is often characterized by vibrant colors and simple lines without pockets. Although the term literally means "Korean clothing", hanbok today often refers specifically to Joseon Dynasty-style semi-formal or formal wear that is worn during traditional festivals or celebrations.

I don't have so much things to explain about Kimono and Hanbok.

Since I adore Japan and Korea.

Wednesday, 25 June 2008

कर्म

Siguro naman, may karapatan akong magpahayag sa saloobin ko... since I own this blog, right?

Nothing is wrong with the FREEDOM OF EXPRESSION... but it seems like many people, including YOURSELF, are abusing it... you don't even know how to CONTROL and MANAGE the freedom that you have...

So...

That's what you call KARMA! Ayan tuloy... nasira ang pinakamamahal mong GAMIT!

Huwag ka kasing magpaka-PRIMA DONA sa pangkat ko!

May sarili ka na ngang pangkat, umeepal ka pa sa pangkat ko...

Ano'ng klase kang pinuno?

Ikaw pa ang nagiging pasimuno sa pagkalat sa pangkat ko?

Ni hindi mo man lang pagsabihan yung iba mong ka-pangkat (na ka-pangkat ko pa rin) na umayos sila?

Alam mo, huwag mo masyadong damdamin yung pagkawala ng mga paksa mo...

Nagpaalam naman akong buburahin ko ang mga yun...

Pero ano ang ginawa mo?

Tila wari pinagsakluban ka ng langit at impyerno nang mawala ang mga yun...

Gaano ba kahalaga ang mga yun sa iyo? Hindi bale sana kung may kabuluhan at nakakabuti pa sa iba yang paksang pinakalulugod mo!

Kung yung iba mo ngang ka-pangkat, hindi na nga umeepal sa akin...

At ang masama pa sa iyo, ang DAMI MONG PINUPUNA sa akin at sa pangkat ko!

Bakit hindi mo muna punain yang mga kamalian mo?

As the saying goes: "IT IS A GREAT STUPIDITY WHEN YOU FIRST REACT AND CRITICISE ON OTHER'S MISTAKES AND WEAKNESS RATHER THAN WHEN YOU LOOK AND REFLECT FIRST ON YOUR OWN WRONGDOINGS AND FOOLISHNESS..."

Ano? Natauhan ka ba?

Alam ko namang hindi eh... dahil mas paiiralin mo pa rin yang mga ninanais mo! Pinakikinggan mo lang kasi yung mga taong kaparehas din ang daloy ng pag-iisip!

Pareho lang tayong nagkakamali... pero punain mo muna yang mga kamalian mo!

Tuesday, 24 June 2008

BoA



REAL NAME (ROMAJA/ROMAJI): Kwon Bo Ah
HANGUL: 권보아
HANJA/KANJI: 權寶雅
KANA: クォン・ボア
BACKRONYM: Beat of Angel
BITHDATE: November 05, 1986 (1986년 11월 5일/1986年11月5日)
WESTERN ZODIAC SIGN: Scorpio (전갈자리/天蠍宮)
EASTERN ZODIAC SIGN: Tiger (虎/호랑)
ORIGIN: Guri-si, Gyeonggi-do, Korea (구리시, 경기, 한국/九里市, 京畿道, 韓國/九里市,京畿道,韩国)
LANGUAGES: Korean (한국어, 조선말/韓国語、 朝鮮語), Japanese (日本語/일본어), English (英語/영어)


BoA is my most favourite Korean female singer. Grabe, her voice is indeed a BEAT OF ANGEL! I really like her Korean and Japanese songs, though I could only understand some.

Whenever she hits the stage, I can't help myself but to clap and cheer for her deep within me! She is so lovely, like an angel!

How I wish, her songs will be popularized here in the Philippines. And I'm going to give her my composed lyrics for ID; Peace B and Valenti in Filipino. Wow, Tagalog Version of her songs!



Monday, 23 June 2008

Storm Frank

Grabeng lakas yan!!!

Nakakainis pa... nilalagnat pa ako ngayon gayong hindi naman ako lumabas kahapon!!!

Nakakalunos naman yung mga naperwisyo sa paglubog sa MV Princess of the Orient...

May the souls of the faithful departed find eternal peace and divine light from Our Lord...

Sa mga nagbabasa nito, ipagdasal po ninyo yung mga nasalanta at namatayan dahil sa bagyo...

Always remember that there is always a rainbow after a disastrous storm...

Friday, 20 June 2008

NCM 104 Catastrophe!

First day of lecture classes... supposedly...

But guess what?

Almost all of my classmates are currently having their duty at Guagua Provincial Hospital!!! MY GOODNESS!!!

I haven't had an idea that I am supposed to have my hospital duty in our province... perhaps,

Anyway, it's not actually a big catastrophe for me... I'm just being exaggerated again... silly me...

The good thing is that I've met my new groupmate in RLE. He is alsom my classmate in lecture. Actually, he's some sort of kind and jolly. And we eventually became good friends.

The good thing is that we automatically felt the sense of oneness. I'm a happy person. He's a happy person. Therefore, we are both happy persons! As we go on with our bonding moments, we shared some stories about what was and what is happening on us. We both had our hearty lunch. As he mentioned, he's from Quezon City campus of our university. And he said that it was somewhat comfortable to be in our campus. And before I forget, I have shown to him my real and authentic personality - having a high sense of PRIDE.

It's not that I'm boasting my prideness, but that's the real me. But I belive that we will still know each other... since he's also almost like me. And sooner or later, we'll become best of friends, just like my other best of friends in Malabon City. However, he's from the slight-distant city of Pasig. And he also said that he is almost familiar with the whole image of Pasig City. It's his homecity anyway. How I wish, he'll meet my friends here in Malabon, and befriend them as well. But like me, he's also a busy person, especially on Sundays.

And so, we are going to watch some good French movies by tomorrow...

Sunday, 15 June 2008

Lea Salonga



Truly, she's my most favourite Filipina singer ever. Gifted with an angelic voice and a dazzling image, she has captured my soul and my heart as well. Lately, I watched the trailer on her new Play RODGER AND HAMMERSTEIN'S CINDERELLA.

Indeed, Lea is undeniably indisputable. KAPAMPANGAN YA MU RIN KASI! After all, we Kapampangans are simple yet gorgeous! And we are proud that Lea and I are both Kapampangans!

It would be more lovely it she will have another duet with Brad Kane, Christian Bautista, or Vincent Bueno. Any sentimental and mellow song will do for sure!